Yep

I'm sitting outside at penny lane right now.
This man in his late 60s just left.
Before he did though
He talked to me about how wonderful children are,
How combersome teenagers are,
And how his 68 year old girlfriend loves having sex.

Yep

Different Strokes

I'd say two days ago it happened
I was standing at a little get together
Then people started getting angry really quick
That's always stressful,
I got up from my chair after things subsided
Walked to the doorway of the kitchen
Stumbled
slipped
blackout
I came back on the floor with a hole bit through my lip.
They said I almost landed on the poor cat sitting there.
I don't remember.
Everyone thought it was a joke I was playing.
The rest of that night, even before that hilarity happened,
I only have snippets of memory.
I can't off the top of my head remember events pretty much since then.
It's a struggle just to remember people I've talked to since.
Hmmmm

The bridge you jumped off of
Before we met
Is being repainted
Out of its old colors.
Out of its rust
Out of its weather
Out of its beauty

I got it, i got it, I lost it

The past few days I've been sick medicating myself heavily with ny-quil and alcohol.
I've found that this, when also mixed with other drugs, leaves you pointless, in a daze, and unable to comunicate wizely with yourself and others.
Conversly, this combination might just let you act in reality how you actually do in your own mind.
For example, if you're like me, you'd go about being destructive, saying the wrong things in the wrong tone.
So I guess the lesson in all of this is to not mix bad with bad, I guess.
But, you can't say a bunch o' fuck ups aren't a bit of fun.

OldBoy

Laugh, and the world laughs with you.

Weep, and you weep alone.

Take Offs and Plane Crashes

Let me just say Russell Brand: what a beautiful man.
He did this one bit when it was the 50th anniversary of On The Road where him and his friend Matt went across the US the same way Jack did... fuck, I can't remember the spelling of his last name. I'd google it, but fuck it. I'm preoccupied watching it right now. Anyway, it's a good time.
It's keeping me in good spirits.
Also, I've hardly left my apartment in about a week, and what a horrible week it's been.
So, in order for me to stay sane with myself and I in this tiny space, I've started drinking copious amounts of liquor and coffee at the same time.
It makes me feel stupid and excited all at the same time which gets me into more fun than I know how to facilitate in my apartment.
It keeps things from staying unfunny which makes it even better that something so silly can change your vantage on something so not.

and because humans are fucked up...

here you go.

War Photographer
The Bang-Bang Club

I was reading around on Henry Rollins' blog and he mentioned the bang-bang club as being a great read. Then I found war photographer on onebigtorrent.com. I'm watching it right now. It's hard... I mean, both to watch and that these people are just hard motherfuckers. I always thought that Christiane Amanpour, CNN's cheif international correspondent, was just kind of this one corporate hooker. I never really though of her as having credentials, but she does. It's a tough film that follows around James Nachtwey on his reports in Kosovo after the war, Rwanda after the genocide, Indonesia during the poverty, and so on.

"...it was like taking the express elevator to hell," James Nachtwey said in describing photographing a cholera epidemic in the refugee camps after the Rwanda massacres. "..it was hard to get over that."


and so it goes...

What Happened While I Was Asleep.

It's raining so hard outside today.
There's this guy standing outside on a box
in the middle of the parking lot
Just right out from my balcony.
He's playing an accordion. He looks like this.
He was playing songs that sounded like this... choose the one that says ARMS.
There where news paperboys running all around him passing out a book to everyone.
Then the thunder woke me up.
I looked outside and it was raining so hard outside today.

Status Report

I mess up a lot at things I have a significant say in.
I try not to give a fuck about things I can't change,
But i can't stop thinking about the things i can.
The g-unit took her meds twice in a hour yesterday.
Chew found her eating pie with her bare hands.
"I thought you were going to stop getting up in the night and having snacks."
"It's four in the morning, isn't it? That's a perfectly good time to eat."
She turned 93 last week.

Turn off the lights and run

I like it when things fall apart.

Got out of bed too early.
I couldn't sleep. Now
We're watching Dracula.
The one bram threw down.
3.44 - i'm drinking keystone
Beer is beer. Piss it
I don't know what's going on in this movie.
Fuck, i don't know what's going on
In my movie.
Situations get fucked up....
Shit, did Reeve just ger his made-up old ass stomped.
Chels is down until work.
I just want to finish some school
And play around in the city...
Piss on it. Right now it's all gnarles...
Aw shit, Dracula just got iced.
Bitch looked like jesus for a sec.
Shit, that shoplifter chick just cut him and is all sad about it.. wtf
There goes his head... Wtf
Everyone loves Neo?
Fml

:)

11:27I remember this one timr i was at a bar listening to Bush on the jukebox.
Unemployed.
Out of cigarettes.
Happy.