Saturday Morning Watchmen

I don't think I've ever been happier than when i was gaming, schooling, eating, sleeping.
hl2
DoD 1.6
DoD:Source
CS:Source
That was my life for three years.
And it was awesome.

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Application For A Driving License by Michael Ondaatje

Two birds loved
in a flurry of red feathers
like a burst cottonball,
continuing while I drove over them.
I am a good driver, nothing shocks me.

This is the way i understand it.

Hi
My name's Stephen.
I am 22.
I am about 5'9, if that
And 140 lbs.
I am a small guy.
I have a mother
A father
A brother
And a grandmother.
There are more, but they do well on their own.
When i get nervous around new people
I drink a lot, a lot.
When i'm sad i stay in my apartment for days on end, saying that i'm just reading a lot, but mostly, i just do nothing.
I like to cause trouble mostly because i'm afraid if i try not to
I'll do it any way.
But i like all of this.
This is whom i live with the vast majority of my time.
It's not perfect,
But i like tim minchin

XY - Five Years

I'm sitting on the bed in my father's guest bedroom.
It's 2:42am.
I don't like coming here because I see him as a broken man; stuck in the past.
But still I drive the four hour trip to see him. He doesn't really have any friends, doesn't really go out, he lives so far away from any family, he....
But wait, maybe fuck that entire perception.
Maybe the way I see my father is just a testament of how much I don't know him... or at least that's a better reality.
Coming up here always makes me take stock of my life and analyze its trajectory, which is probably directly linked to the fact that dear old dad still has a dear old dial up modem.
I guess it's not just my father, but my entire family. I don't enjoy any of them.
Seeing them mainly makes me feel bad.
I can't help that.

Trying sucks