U.S.L

i remember a bunch of times that ive made a promise to not do something because i have this reason
some indescribable feeling that can be dumbed down to feeling above child's play
but i can also remember forgetting that feeling that struck me
every time i felt like being a liar
and it sucks
because i feel that feeling right now and i know that it wont last
because i cant really imagine myself keeping a promise sad