options

i don't really know where to go with this.
what i do know is that for the first time in our relationship i am weighing my options.
unseriously-frantically.
it's not because of what little things that happened to make me outraged,
but because i didn't feel that i could communicate them to her while she was drunk
or if i'll be able to in the morning aftermath
that's why i smiled as i left the apartment... our apartment.
would it be easier just to cut and go, irrationally
or to stay and say i was disappointedhurtangeredNOpissedoff-
no.
frustrated.
my steeling wheel is dented in and my knuckles are sore.
i can't sleep.
aided by the fact that my dad is snoring
i am in a hotel room and not my home

i don't really know