I just want to climb trees and be one with everything

The year is finishing its tumble- and parts of today seemed like it had never began to roll.
I had one of those things happen today in journalism where I could incoherently know what I was trying to say, but could not
When this happens, I forget words - very simple words - all together
then my grasp on syntax goes
and there I'm left deaf and dumb.

I was trying to redo my senior article so that it wouldn't seem like a 'hey, fuck you. bye' stunt of end of the year arrogance directed towards some people of the sig staff. But, when I tried to revise, I became aware that nothing could come together.
then I started getting intimidated by the most trivial things

Ms. Atkinson turned to me during class in a rolly chair next to the one I was sitting in and asked me, "what are you trying to add in?"
I do not believe I have been so ashamed of a ernest response of mine in my life.
I stared at her with squented eyes; mumbling out my incoherent thoughts in their incoherent form.

I hate it when people genuinly think i am dumb. I don't know why it gets to me so much... yes i do
I just kept apologizing about my incompetence after everything i said

I think it was all this stress about audition
crap. break over