cutting off so clean, it's so messy

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what did i get myself into? Nothing that drinks and 5 months won't cure, i hope because that's what i've got. Attempts at dialogue and closure aren't really not doing the opposite. somehow everything just becomes clumped together and backward:

roebyamitsujtnodtnawottegrevosihtniemosdewercspuesnesfoymecneicsnocbustsujgnittis
gnitiawekiladedrateryppupgodtahttogdekcoltuofoehtesuohretfastiylimafdevomyawa
gnirednownehwarailimafecaflliwemockcabdnateltiemohstillaarettamfinehwllitsisseug
ehtgninoitidonctahtnehwsionregnolniehterutcipllitstnsahnettogotemesuacebmifedoteht
dnuosfosllebdnaootbmudottelotnotirootyasstahwgnimaercsedisnifoememockcabotememockcabotem

o+B= <1

it's so quiet outside right now, 4:44.
I can't think straight. I'm so tired, but everytime i go to bed, i think of all the things i have to get done before my audition and recordings.
"it's got me working all the time." thanks, cake.
in celebration of presidents' day, i wanted to make a list of all the reasons why not to celebrate our presidents by making an outline of horrible things that each president has done, but forget it. they're not worth it.
i say a flag burning would do just fine, but weren't they making a constitutional amendment to outlaw that? i never follow that jazz through.
Oh well.

cheers